memories.
Saturday, November 28, 2009!
HandWritten on; 4:21 AM
HEY PEEEEEEPSSSS!
im at my friend's place.
gonna stay overnight~
ate mac &dranked (:
HTHT is in progress just nowwwww too eh! ;D
&we checked out http://www.sfogszero.com/
DAMN. its scary....
check it out alright ! (:anyway,gonna do our stuffs already...
so,
sorry guys!
&&&&&&, will not be blogging for a few daystoo (:
recently too busy.
out all night.
sleep during th day.
&once i wake up, im out again.
ugrh. ): lack of sleep &freaking tired tooo.
LOL. im naggy. alright..
gotta go offffffffffff.chiao.&i really do, miss you.
did you? ):
Monday, November 23, 2009!
HandWritten on; 10:14 PM
I've learned that things change, people change,& it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up.It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be.However, i do know that the hardest part in moving forward is never to look back.sigh.
Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, we must fail in order to know, Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears.
!
HandWritten on; 8:31 PM
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if I wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.
woke up about 6plus today.gosh. wasted th whole day sleeping&,i did not visit benny today ):sigh. yesterday, went for facial with JJ. (:then dropped by amk to see hamster.left, went to amk hub &ate at pepper lunch.went down to raffles &met up with aaron &roy.train-ed down to pasir ris.went to downtown &met up with raymond&benjamin.went escape &we're havoc.played almost everything &we got ourselves freaking wet at th end.wet &wild, &th bumper boats.its freaking cool cos i sprayed till thy're totally soacked with water ; head shots ;Dluckily we got extra clothings, thanks to ray. heh (:while when we're at th pirate ship, it was really hillarious cos i shouted th loudest compared to tons of people right opposite of us. LOL.then when we went up, freaking boyf &roy tickled me from both sides!as im effing afraid of it, i cursed &swear that if i get down, they'll die.&, i effing almost cried if they continue with it. LOL.it's like getting higher &there they are disturbing me. ):anyway, visited th haunted house too. &boyf's damn irritating. ;Dkept shouting that someone touched him from behind ;Dblablablaaaaaa. how we wished B was here with us at escape. LOLanyway left. went to eat at kfc.boyf&ray left.walked back to white sands with aaron&roy.headed to bugis &met up with sebastian.walked around &we end up at th stretch of stairs outside marina square.along with us was carton of carlsberg. LOL.dranked, went back to jurong.sebastian's face was effing red ;Dblabla. went around central. met up with jinhoon too.drank vodka &slacked till around 9am.left &went home to sleep.didnt went to meet benny ):guess, he missed me alot &am disappointed. sigh.sam.
just get over it.
im not interested in you anymore.
maybe even this relationship.
im sorry.
it will never be th same.
i dont feel for you th way i used to already.
yes, i can see that you're making th effort &all, now.
However, i have to admit, you're a step too late.
i thought this r/s can be salvaged but, im sorry.
just take its as im a bitch,
its over. im tired. cos i tried too hard.
I thought by staying, trying to change you would be worth it samuel,
but now i see that trying to change you, only changed me.
urgh. we're through, completely.
&, im old enough to know better, but just too irritated to care any longer.
If you had one phone call to make before you died, who would you call, what would you say, and why are you WAITING?!
TAG REPLIES;
jason, haha. sure sure (:
richard, haha. yeah. i have it for a period of time already eh..
cairong, LOL! let's seeeeee.. ha
jason, wow. so clever ;D
lashes, NO THANKS.
rf, i dont quite remember th shop but its at bugis junction, level 3(:
joey.muomuo, ha. i think i'll meet you on wed eh. not meeting winston&co.
passby, ohhh. alright alright (:
^.^, LOL ! what kinda tattoo is counted real to you? LOL. i edited th star there ;x
amanda, NOPES. ha. (:
joey, RISE. lol. but to me its night eh. ;D
richard, relax. its not a sin. LOL.
joey, ya what. im freeee. heh.
alicson, omg. i miss you too . &yeah. i'll forgive you. i still remember, you said you'll be my mother, my father &all. ha ;D
roy, dumb ;D
ND, even dumber . hahaha
psb, seriously, who are you. you give me this impression that you're someone close to me, once.
zhanghuimei, LOL.hello.
If some things are better left unsaid, then maybe they too are better left undone
Sunday, November 22, 2009!
HandWritten on; 4:24 AM
TODAY, im a busy girl.
running here &there. GOSH.
anyway, woke up about 12.
literally dragged myself out of bed.
was late. &th 2 retardeds waited for me ;D
went to cine leisure. kbox-ed.
LOL. &halfway through, samuel came to find me (:
went back in . sang&stuff.
then went to find J, A &B. (:
they're effing funny, i swear . ha.
ran back into kbox cos th 2 retards are still, waiting for me. LOL.
sang again. then soon after, it ended (:
met J,A&B again. then we went seperate ways to eat.
joey.J , dar & i went to hong kong cafe to eat. (:
was effing tired while waiting for th food toooooo. ):
anyway, left before they're even done to meet tommy&billy.
& i realised, i promised E.daddy to accompany him today ( to kelvin's birthday).
too late. &he's already at atlantis., drinking? LOL.
didnt gooooo.. oooops. ha.
blablabla.
bearbear came. ;D
JJ, dar&bearbear went to taka i guess.
while i met up with J,A&B again.
went ss.
left about 11.40& its was just in time for th last train.
they left at a stop. ( i forget)
&i met up with JJ,dar&bear again to train back to boonlay together.
went to buy alchohol. (:
JJ drank breezer. bearbear &dar drank heineken.
i drank long island.
i was effing #$%^&*. swear.
but luckily, im good enough. LOL.
JJ&bear walked me home (:
I believe the saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone and then one day you look into their eyes and listen to them talk and realize that they are gone. All you see in front of you is a stranger with just a known name.
sorry peopleeee.
im tired. gotta wake up early tmr.
so i'll reply tags.. tomorrow? (:
nights guys.
Saturday, November 21, 2009!
HandWritten on; 3:10 AM
Afraid to take the step and unsure of it's future,
&yet knowing it's needs to be taken or else its impossible to move forward.
Friday, November 20, 2009!
HandWritten on; 12:55 AM
too many photos. im lazy to edit. (:shall just start.today slept till 6plus.woke up, prepared&went to vivo.stupid boyf was late.so i waited for him like a effing retard. ):went to carl's jr to eat &cam-whore.we're literally insane i guess.ha.went to slack &more photos were taken. ha. &i literally forgotten about th clubbing with E today.so at last, an aeroplane was flew. ;xblablabla.left about 11pm &i saw a familiar face while im on th train.i've forgotten his name already. too bad (:you said im mean to you.
ha?
TAG REPLIES;
jason, not true eh ! my son is older than me ! (:
richard, nah. its not dangerous. im living in a condo &all my friends are like, HERE. LOL
cairong, haha. thanks? LOL. its such a long time since i last sang. ha
joey, YOU LO ! CALL ME AT ABOUT 4PM. disturb my beauty sleep ;x HA.
passby, ha. it mattes alot (: &im really curious cos you're acting mysterious.
past-bye, maybe, th problem is you did nothing to make me wanna stay. nextly, okay... fine.. so? if everyone in th world love me. should i time everyone? -.- so, dont act emotional here. &who you.
J.Y, as seen in my blog, im cool . ha ;D
alicson, HAVE EH! you tell roy you love him. you text him, NEVER TEXT ME ! ): still dare say meet up. text roy to meet him also never meet me! STUPID YOU. i go emo eh.
Thursday, November 19, 2009!
HandWritten on; 1:17 AM
today woke up about 12am.
prepared& train-ed down to orchard.
&i met xuanxuan on th way. heh.
he grew cool-er &much more handsome already ;D
anyway, met up with B &boyf.
then we went to gucci to see stuffs .
&just because of that, we got caught in th rain while walking towards cine.
all thanks to th rich freak; benjamine boyf!
LOL! if we had'nt went in, i dont think we'll be drenched. ;/
anyway, B's so sweet. she gave me her hoodie to cover my head. heh (:
blablabla. joshua&co. came to find me.
&raymond came to find boyf? LOL.
went to get tixs for 2012 & then,
we went seperate ways to eat.
raymond,B,boyf& i went to hong kong cafe to eat.
&we cam-whored damn alot. ha !
it was super funny cos there was this waitress there that approached us &asked if i joined some beauty contest. Boyf then shouted saying i was from campus.
i literally denied &said it was my cousin .
i even pushed her attention towards benita . HA !
it was hillarious.
blablabla. went for th movie.
i'll give it a 4.5/5 (:
left &went to raymond's place at newton.
cavenagh house. LOL.
ate &stuff ,drank too.
we were like freaking bored so we took lots of videos.
adultery scenes, bar scenes, gay scenes, les scenes, hooking up scenes &all. LOL
somewhat, its th best day of my life. ;D
had great fun &we were laughing loudly th whole night till our face go red ;D
&& we even played true or dare &it was really havoc. GOSH.
today's totally over my limit, or rather, everyone gone wild.
till now boyf is traumatised ;D yayay! heh.
hope this amount of fun i have will never end ):
ohyah ohyah.
met up with haim today too. heh.
had quite a long chat(:
( th angmoh that exchanged number with me. ha!)
¤tly, chatting with son on th phone . ha
ha. &tmr should i go clubbing with E, or meet up with boyf? ;/
LOL. chiao.
im sick and tired of your fucking nonsence.
you said you love me &you didnt want th break up,
trying so hard to prove that you love me &saying i was th one playing.
pushing all th blame towards me &even trying to compare th things you did &th stuff i did.
im tired of this r/s between us.
im really exhausted. i loved you but i had to move on.
stop telling me you can change.
i had enough of it. you broke your promise.
its over.
&dont blame me for being too playful.
since when do we even look or act like a couple?
get a life.
you're just not ready yet.
whatever it is.i've had enough.
TAG REPLIES;
richard, hahahhaa. sorry eh .
jason, WA ! wings damn hard now leh hor?! ;D
passby, ha. alright. do i know you anyway ? (:
^.^, what are you talking about... LOL. &thanks.
cairong. oh. hello ! ;D ha.
J.Y, oh. welcome back? LOL(:
Pb, i edit my photos by using photoscape (:
richard, ha. it's okay eh. not emotional. just joking. (:
jason, WA ! you really very very very naggy eh. why not be my god mother? LOL! ;D
passby,LOL! cheers.
valerie, haha. okay..
Going back with you may be hard,
but going forward without you is impossible.
however, i dont give a fuck.
Labels: The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn't want to be held on to
Wednesday, November 18, 2009!
HandWritten on; 2:11 AM
today slept till about 7pm.
lazed around.
went downastairs;dranked, alone. LOL.
an emo session was complete ;D
went home btahed &stuff.
went to fetch hamster from lakeside.
went back to my area to slack then daniel&roy came.
hamster ggot drunk though. ;/
then we went home about 2am.
I want and deserve a man who knows he wants to be with me.
If that's not you, I need to know so I can move on.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009!
HandWritten on; 10:04 PM
benny, i miss you lots ):sigh. woke up today &got stunned by one text.it was from joyce.he went to visit benny today&he told her to tell me,that he want me to visit him next monday.he also wants me to go to his court.he have alot of things that he wanna tell me..sigh.my heart hurts when i saw this.&i know, he still cared for me, alot ):hope he is not creating trouble inside.hope he's fine.i wished, he'll just grow up.. sigh
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HandWritten on; 9:02 AM
just reached home& i cant sleeeeeepp ):
i shall blog about yesterday then . ha
woke up around 5pm.
prepared& met roy.
train-ed to clarke quay.
met up with laupo, deck, andy, william&edmund.
then, met nichlaus &co. to pass them tickets.
met boyf & B after that toooooo! ;)
HOWEVER, they left soon after. (long story)
went clubbing with yiching though.
&left about 3.15am.
went to mac to eat &chanced upon hans&joshua (:
anyway, all cabbed home soon after.
while jing hong, yiching & i slacked at th riverside.
took th first train back .
such a poor thing ; jinghong.
cos i dragged him down with me. hah.
supposedly, he need his rest yet, he accompanied me to slack ;D
in repay, i rot with him around my area till 8.15am.
then he left for home to brush his teeth &off to work (:(:
&&&yesterday, i chanced upon angeline,wenbin,berlicial,joey,hubert,chiahao&travis (:
I wish I could see through your eyes so I would know what you like to see. I wish I knew your wishes, so I could give you everything you want. I wish I dreamed the same dreams you do, and together we could make them come true. I wish I knew what makes you happy, so I could make you the happiest person in the whole world. And lastly, I wish I were a cell in your blood, so I would be sure I was somewhere in your heart
TAG REPLIES;
passby, stalker ?! GOSH ;D shocking eh. heheh.
richard, what what what! ;D got so kua zhang meh? ;D
Rachel, i dont really spend time talking on msn ;X i always online, blog &log out ;D
jason, WA! i cant take you very lame. I DONT HAVE GUN! ;D
boyf, EH ! sorry uh! ;D i'll put it up la. heh. ugly? relax ah ! hahaha
If your love does not work with that person, it just means that someone else loves you more.
Labels: Advice is only asked to be given when you know the true answer; you just don't want to believe it
